My firstborn son recently turned eight and I spent some time thinking about how much has changed since I first became a mother. There’s so much that I’ve learned, and perspective that I have gained. Life before I was a mother was so different, and I wanted to write down the feelings I have looking back on that.
Before I Was a Mother
Before I was a mother, I didn’t know what real struggle was.
I didn’t understand sacrifice.
But I found the beauty of creation;
Of holding purity in your hands.
Before I was a mother, I didn’t know what worry was.
I didn’t understand much beyond myself.
But I found the healing power of laughter
That turns perspective upside-down in an instant.
Before I was a mother, I didn’t know what pain was,
Because I didn’t know how much there was to lose.
But I found out that magic was real.
For it is found in the eyes of a child.
Before I was a mother, I didn’t know the true depths of exhaustion;
To be stretched so wide, so far, for so long.
But I found that the trials that stretched me
made room for the joy that my children would bring.